<!-- Text Link Replacing : Provided by Blogring.net -->

<script language="javascript">

<!--

var links = document.getElementsByTagName ('a');

for (var l = 0; l < links.length; l++) {

str = links[l].innerHTML;

//blogring.net.document.write

if (str.match (/\d+:\d+ (am|pm)/i)) links[l]

else if (str.match (/add eprops/i)) links[l].innerHTML = str.replace (/add eprops/i, "la la la la");

else if (str.match (/eprop/i)) links[l].innerHTML = str.replace (/eprop/i, "petal");

else if (str.match (/eprops/i)) links[l].innerHTML = str.replace (/eprops/i, "petals");

else if (str.match (/add comments/i)) links[l].innerHTML = str.replace (/add comments/i, "utaou sora o miagete");

else if (str.match (/comment/i)) links[l].innerHTML = str.replace (/comment/i, "feather");

else if (str.match (/comments/i)) links[l].innerHTML = str.replace (/comments/i, "feathers");

else if (str.match (/oldest/i)) links[l].innerHTML = str.replace (/oldest/i, "past");

else if (str.match (/newest/i)) links[l].innerHTML = str.replace (/newest/i, "present");

}//-->

</script>

<!-- End Script : Provided by Blogring.net -->

i am being so miserable..

i annoy people..

i bother people..

i nag at people..

i bug people..

i embarrass people..

what the hell am i good for?!

materialistic bitch..

in which the true reality is where mental happiness is only a fantasy..

up bringers and down bringers.. more of the latter however..

patheticness..

fragile condescending shells of personalities..

what is there to look up to??

look forward to??

nothing.. i have nothing.. everything is nothing.. an illusion..

you dillusional freak!! stop playing with my mind!! i don't want to be a chile anymore!! but i don't want to grow up either.. but it's something i have to do in order to forget and move on..

but that will never happen.. it's impossible..

i'll never grow up.. i'm never going to..

never planning to..

growing up is for adults.. and adults are blind.. and they look down on us.. on me.. because i'm not as experienced or as intelligent as them.. i'm only more logical..

everything's a mess.. i

m back to square one.. maybe the hospital room fantasy will have a chance at reality yet..

one way or another i will have my reality.. i will have my ife.. i will have my end.. my choice.. my way.. in my own sweet time.. i will have my reality become a reality..they will all suffer what they deserve.. and i will take punishment for them all.. i will be the scapegoat.. i will be their persecutor.. as they have been m7y opressors..

i won't have anymore of their condescendece..

and they will have nothing but pity and mourning for themselves..

changed everything once again ...

the bgm is a midi of "tooi kono machi de", the first ccs movie song ... and ofcourse if you've ever seen card captors you'd know that the person in the header is kinomoto sakura ...

this is actually pretty strange mainly because ... who would ever expect me to use pink on anything ? o.O

oh well i did because i'm bored ...

so yeah ... boredom ... got my laptop back yay ...

-------------------->> edit >>

i posted this on blogring.net if anyone's interested ...

i changed everything for no reason . . .

none of the changes mean anything either . . .

it's so meaningless . . .

i like that word . . .

meaningless . . .

my other xanga is more active so yeah . . .

one more thing . . . i don't think i'm ever going to say sorry . . . it's not my fault if warnings aren't heeded . . .

i've fucking moved . . .

all those people from the blogrings who come here - dun worry i'm rejoinging on the new account . . .

all those people who haven't been told my new sn don't need to ask - i'm not telling . . .

i'll resubscribe to those people i don't mind telling . . .